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This week my Job title was altered to Principal Planner. The whole department had their titles changed (though sadly there wasn’t a pay increase along with it). It’s nice to have a title upgrade. I am glad to have it. But does this, or putting my various letters after my title, change who I am?Continue reading “Defining success…”

Went to Cherry Orchard Country Park this afternoon. The bluebells are still out en masse in places and look beautiful. They transform the greens and browns. It reminds of the power of the multitude. We saw a single flower in the trees which stood out in it’s own way. But when combined with thousands moreContinue reading “Bluebell woods…”

It’s Mental Health month. My head is spinning a bit from doing a lot of inner searching over the last couple of weeks. How do I deal with a longing for closeness but a tendency to keep people at arm’s length; to hide? It’s easier to do tasks than to be vunerable as a person.Continue reading “Looking in, looking up, looking out…”

It’s been good to have all of my girls together this week for the first time in ages. Dog-sitting too; it was a busy house! Good to see them interacting and having fun. Each one is very different in their own way, bringing varied gifts and talents to the party. That’s like a workplace orContinue reading “Giftedness..”

This Wednesday was a special day and a rite of passage. Natalie, my youngest, had her graduation in Nottingham. It was a special occasion for her as it hadn’t looked like she would graduate at one stage. It was really tough going emotionally for her at times during her degree and she nearly gave upContinue reading “Easter and graduation day…”

This weekend I was treated to a trip to Ongar by a special friend. We first of all went on the Epping-Ongar Railway where we initially were pulled by a 95 year old steam engine then went onto a 60 year old diesel multiple unit. Both brought back memories. Living history. After that we wentContinue reading “Living History”

Last week at this time I was watching Councillors in a neighbouring authority reject their Local Plan. Years in the making, approved by a Government Inspector yet turned down by the Members. Thrown out in the hope that something more palatable will come along. Highly unlikely given every plan ever produced for that Council inContinue reading “Facing failure…”

We all go through life and pick up knocks and bruises. These can be traumatic. Each of us find different ways of dealing with this. Some bury it; others deal with it and others let it define their lifes. I know that in my life it can be like trying to press down wrapping thatContinue reading “Repairing the damage”

I am late in posting this week but I have the excuse of having spent much of the week in remote Pembrokeshire with a variable signal and a dodgy phone. I’ve never been west of Swansea before and I have to say it is a beautiful area. Well worth a visit (even if the weatherContinue reading “Time away…”

What is normal? What does secure mean? I did a quiz on attachment styles in relationships following a recommendation from a colleague. It would have been great to be secure but I came back as anxious detached. Oh dear! I am glad that I am going on a healing retreat in a fortnight. And IContinue reading “Attachment styles..”